…………be my own hero

#daggers #bemyhero #battlesinMe #atwarwithmyownself #lifetimedream

As much as I would love to believe that someone, somewhere……… will save me from all the darkness…. Somewhere… unexpectedly I will meet someone…

Who will exactly fit my “Once in a lifetime dream come true” … phrase….

And I keep on avoiding all the other possibilities and opportunities… I .. but a fool… very well knowing that avoidance is not the best choice….

Its not the stab in the back that kills you….its only when you turn around and see who’s holding the dagger…..with an ever enchanting smile adorning the face…

I can sit and hide from pain and disappointment as long as I want… and refuse to grow or even outgrow my figments of imaginations….

Truth is… growth is not found here… this is just a trap !!

True growth, specially self development will come only when I learn to stop waiting….

to be healed…

It will happen when I will start taking those small steps to pull myself out of the darkness… all by myself… its my own war with my own self….

My own responsibility….

No one will come to help me…. or save me….. the hardcore truth has to hit me hard…

across the face…

The light at the end of the tunnel will always be far away ….as long as my focus is blur…

It will be hard.. but I have to realize that I have to be my own savior…

I have to realize I have saved myself even before from sinking into oblivion…

I have to realize that I have always had the strength to help myself….

I need to believe this… deep down my heart… that I will get there…just like before … I have got there… all alone… speak to myself about repeated defeats and then the rising….

In this vicious war with myself… there is no victory or defeat… there is only movement… forward… stages to be crossed…. With daggers in heart… and winning my own self… yet not be deceived by moments of glory…. If any….

The light is always darkest at this stage… I have learnt that…. I have to keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel…

I have to be my own hero… as always…. Be there for ME… as there is nobody else…

I know… who I am ….

I have battled things that my smile will never tell you about…

I am my mum’s favorite ENOLA.

I am my own HERO.

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